Are you ever jealous of Jesus?

I know that I couldn’t have been one of the first disciples of Jesus. I mean, they weren’t all that great at their job, but I would have totally been Judas. Here’s the thing:

Listening to God is hard because there is this interpretation piece you have to work through long before you get to the part where you have to choose to take God’s words or not. Listening to God requires use of the heart, not just the ears. It means that I have to pay attention to myself, my feelings and the world around me. That is some difficult work!

Once you have discerned what God has said, you then have to interpret that into action. Ok, maybe you can then choose to interpret that into action. So if I am choosing to walk in the path of God, I must be vulnerable to the call, be centered in the call and then move forward knowing that I am guided by God in that call.

Then here comes Jesus with all his certainty…most of the time (that cross really was a difficult one to face). For example in today’s reading from Mark, the disciples are in the boat, its rocking and they are having a difficult time keeping themselves upright. What does Jesus do, he just walks right on the water. No fear. He just knows, I am God so here I come. And then it says that he was about to pass them, but decides to turn around and get in. As soon as he gets in the winds stop. Once they finally get to the other side, the disciples have to fix up the damage done to said boat, will probably have to procure food and lodging. What happens to Jesus? He gets swarmed like the Beatles coming to America! and then all the people are healed by simply touching his cloak.

ok, maybe my interpretation of the story leaves out the part where Jesus has to try to get this rag tag troop to actually believe in the power of God at their core and to believe that they can do what he does if they are centered in God as he is, etc.. and then there is that martyr thing.  But in today’s story, I have to feel for the disciples. I guess being a disciple is like being  roady and the roadies are always jealous for the rock star. If I was a disciple, I would probably be Judas.

I would like to preface this post with the fact that I have been watching several episodes of CSI:Miami on Netflix and this may have crowded my judgement about people who kill out of jealousy.