So after my not so good Monday, I went to music camp for a day trip and a dip in the pond. It was amazing. On Wednesday, the day looked like it was going to be a little overcast, but all of a sudden the puffy white clouds in the sky seemed to avoid the sun. They decided to flank the cloud like a picture. I drove down to Center Pond in Nelson, NH and it was again a reminder of how great God is.
It was the second time I had that feeling of how awesome the world is. I felt a little hesitant walking into the water this time. I stood at the edge with my toes dipped in watching the salamanders and little fish swim around. I don’t know what was stopping me. There is a part of me that realized how seperated from nature I have been since I moved back to NYC. The bugs were freaking me out, the nature all around seemed strange and weird. But it is all a part of creation. Eventually, I realized that some guys in a truck were coming down, I thought to go out in boats, but they were doing construction. So I went in to avoid the humans. As soon as I went under and felt the cold water around my body, I felt like I was being baptized. As I laid on my back and saw the beautiful skies above, I felt so refreshed. After a good float, I swam back to the rock, the famous rock where I first heard the voice tell me to pursue.
This time the voice didn’t have much to say, but it did show me. There they were: the little lambs were grazing. The sky was that same bluest sky blue, the water was a mirror, the trees were real green. God didn’t have to say anything, because God is…with me, i me, and all around me helping me through the mess. Even here in the city. It’s time to stay connected to nature and music, they are a great way to enhance my spiritual life. Tomorrow is my second spiritual direction meeting with a new person. I hope Fr. Mark is the rock star everyone makes him out to be. It will be good for me. We will see how this goes…I’ll keep you posted.
Pursuing Call 