The thing about the discernment process is that life continues. I still try to date people, have friends, socialize go to a full time job and of course, watch Wimbledon on-line. The thing I suck at the most, is relationships. I recently found out that my ex is dating someone new–oh facebook. It was kind of hurtful to see, we only have been broken up for a couple of weeks. In my dreams, it was still possible to salvage this relationship–but only in my dreams. Seeing a facebook status update that was never granted in our relationship through me for a loop. I gave myself through the end of yesterday to morn this moment. And after speaking with some friends, I am feeling much better. But the real triumph is in these words:
I lift up my eyes to the hills—
from where will my help come?
My help comes from the Lord,
who made heaven and earth.
If God can figure out how to make the heavens and the earth, then I think he can figure out how to send me the ma that will love me the way I need to be loved and he will love me for all of who I am. My therapist said that for some of us it takes a longer time to find that person, I pray that it is not too much longer. But I also came to another conclusion in therapy. Maybe God wants me to build a more solid relationship with her first, then I will be ready to receive the love of a man. I am so excited to engage in the spiritual direction process.
Pursuing Call 